Hello hehehe



Today was my first day at work at kim gary! Came back and i'm not tired, and i've a sudden feel to blog. So here i am :-)

Feeling very organised all of a sudden. I think its because of work. I'm only taking night shifts now, 6-11!! Thankful that the manager was really understanding that i can't work till midnight so i only take days till 11, which is everyday minus Fridays and Saturdays. I think its super good for me i can still enjoy my weekends!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And i can go back to church :-) hehe finally. Have been wanting to go back for the longest time ever but i kept having impt stuff popping up. Impt stuff like concerts hehehe HEY WHAT its a few hundred dollars everytime ok :'(

Feeling quite sad that i've to go back to facing the books starting next week. Its my own plan for myself. And when i do so, i'll stray from whatsapp. I'll socialise less. I'll lose my social life. As if i haven't lost it enough. I sacrificed alot this year, gave up so many things. 2012 was a tough year for me.

Before the holidays end, I want to develop all the pretty photos i've took. And get a photo album. Organise my photos, even those from 2010 (yeap they're unorganised and still placed in yellow envelopes)

Feel like i haven't ate veggies in forever and i don't like it T_T I'm quite a veggie person!! I love the greens that i love. If mum cooks veggie i'll probably finish 2/3 of the plate while both my parents only take 1/3 hehehe. Anw i'm supposed to eat especially healthily these few days bc swc2 is this weekend!! I can't risk anything going wrong so >:)

Shall see if i can get my hands on some greens tmrw

Heading out with the exco!! And then work again

I'm quite worried for work tmrw bc auntie ann that was guiding me along today won't be thr :-(

Next year, I can see myself studying hard. Studying alone, the way i like it or studying with friends that i don't mind studying with. I foresee a lot of alone time, that i really appreciate. I'll probably me in my own world at school too. Anw i'm just left with open house and orientation, can't wait to see the freshies!!!!!! Its my very own motherly instinct :-) Excited to know which juniors are coming to mj!

Next year, I wna be more active. Excerise more. This year, because of jc (and its more intensive pe), i realised that i actually LIKE running. Sometimes i wish mj had some non-competitive cross country cca so i can run more often. I'm lazy pig and i can't really push myself to run. I've had plans since the end of promos, then i pushed it to the end of pw, and then i pushed it till now............ still not running. hm

I want a non-competitive cca bc i don't like competition. Which is one of the main reasons why i ended up in photog actually. Everything in school is so competitive i can't stand it

and about pw...... miss kok heard that our group (mj111!!!!!!) did well (her words, 'very good') for op, which is a big YAY!!!!! esp since we had moderators sit in. (well can't blame our pw group number too nice alrdy) however, i'm still aware that our op is probably very lacking and my i&r isn't up to standard. i was rushing it out 30mins before submission............................... ha ha ha. its not funny bc i submitted F I V E drafts and each draft has two points, but everything got rejected. 10 points got rejected. Thats how bad i am at that document

(wow at the sudden decapitalisation hello small caps)

Wondering if its karma because i missed the one and only i&r lecture. lol if it is I'M SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME I REGRET T_T T_T T_T

Excited for 2013. Excited for whats gna come my way, excited for As to end. Excited to work, get money, and travel. Like f i n a l l y. I've been stuck in Singapore for way too long. On my list now is Korea and Taiwan. We'll see if anything changes :-)



“I used to think the worst feeling in the world was losing someone you love, but I was wrong. The worst feeling is the moment you realize that you've lost yourself.”

I didn't lose someone i love, but i feel that this quote's so apt. My situation rn

I've lost myself

And i don't really know how to get myself back





If you've read through all of this i've got to say i'm impressed bc i just ranted and ranted and ranted and talked about nonsensical stuff. But bc you've read this, you probably know whats going on in my head better now. And i'll like you for that :-)


Have a good December x