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Friday, September 21, 2012

Darling,

'You try to runaway in your sleep but you cant sleep forever, darling.'

Sometimes i really want to get away from this whole... modernized lifestyle. Like i should take a break and retreat into the wild. Go to the countryside, have my phone faaaarrrrr away from me, and be away from all the crazy rush. Be away from all the competition. The climb for academics, the climb for social status. So tired of always (subconsciously) checking myself and my actions against others, even when i'm not interested. I wish i had more courage and confidence to be who i really am. I'm me, no doubt. But just not fully there.

This is one of the main reasons i like being away from my p/a at Twitter. There, i know what everyone's doing. I know too much. I start checking my own life against theirs, and i dislike it. Being away really made me so much happier.

Content papers for promos start in less than a week. Can't say i haven't been studying, but just not at my best. Can't wait for this to be over, can't wait for pw to be over too. Really looking forward to 14 November where i unofficially mark the end of my j1 life (hopefully, if i don't screw up promos bad). Then i'll have my concerts (HEHEHEHEHE) to attend and go crazy. Coz for now, i'm containing all my happy feels inside me and its suffocating.