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Tuesday, January 1, 2013

2012

Hi :-)

This is how 2012 has been

School (ok this is gna be the longest chunk in this post. i think)
Tbh, this is the first year i really really really dreaded school. In the past, when people said that they 'hated' school, i couldn't really understand. I used to find it boring/ a dread at times, and i would dislike some lessons quite extremely (to the extent that i would skip the whole day of school oops) but i just didn't uds. But this year, i feel like i could somewhat understand what they were saying? And this is really a foreign feeling to me bc I'm quite a school person.

I don't really get why i feel this way, i guess its a mixture of everything and anything. Its not that mj is not being nice to me. I think its just..... myself.

I feel like i've been feeling too sad. Feeling too sad of myself.

Its just that if you would ask me if i had another chance, would i want to come back to mj again? I won't be able to give you a definite answer. If i could choose if i wanted to go to cch again? It would be a definite YES. White sands pri? If it even was a choice, i would say yes too. Mj? I really, really really.................................................... don't know.

wdv it is, i felt like this holidays have been a good time away from the school. I literally had almost z e r o contact with anything school related (i still havent started on my hmwk SIGH!!!!!), it was a good good break. Smth i needed, it was a well deserved break. I still don't really know whats the cause of me feeling this way, i think its has many many causes, and it has jumbled up into this. But wdv it is, I AM NOW READY TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. SO SO READY. SO READY TO TAKE ON EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING.

And this time, i'm not gna let anything bring me down.

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Class



20 girls, 4 guys. hahahahahaha

But i really can't deny that i'm thankful for them. That i now feel comfortable with them, that when i enter a classroom with them i feel safe and 'protected'. Comfort zone. I like it.

I feel like i can talk to every single one of them and it wont be weird. I won't feel awkward.

And 'awkward' is a feeling that i feel alot in school this year.

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CCA




exco is the best best best bestest thing that ever happened to me in school this year. /SO/ thankful for them, so grateful, so happy that i'm part of the 9.

I can't imagine how unbearable school life would have been w/o them.

talking outside exco, even being in photog itself has been such a joy. eliminating all competitive natured ccas out of my choices was an extremely wise choice. i feel good and comfortable with everyone (even before exco was formed), even tho i spend much lesser time with them than the class, i could feel the same about them.

PS: I love rolling around in the clubroom. L O V E. HAHAHAHAHA

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Studies
Has been good.

I never studied so hard before

And i never felt like dying so badly bc i didn't want to study anymore (information overload pls T_T!!!!!!!!!!)

AND HENCE IM HAVING A GOOD BREAK AWAY FROM THE BOOKS NOW :------)

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Family
9th year.

Relatively peaceful. I'm glad

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Fangirl (HAHA)
Actually the most 'happening' in my life (like its constantly ongoing) but its the last cat here hmmm why LOL anw kind of glad I'm a fangirl. It has opened my eyes in many ways. I'm sure i see the world differently from other 17y/os around me.

you can skip this if u want honestly not very relevant to most people HAHA

end jan: sistar boyfriend
most 'worth' fanevent ever. + the thai group's appearance it was like a whole 3 hour concert and ofc the performances did not let me down. except for one guy that totally ignored me. TOTALLY LEH. I WAS IN THE FIRST ROW AND U CAN STILL IGNORE ME AND LOOK BEHIND ME SO MANY TIMES WTH you will regret it no minwoo >:-)

spent a BOMB on smth for him but didn't manage to pass him... its in my cupboard now. no idea what to do with it lol and we didn't get the hi5 session passes either. W D V

supposedly supposed to go for ss4 bc i bought tix and everything alrdy but i decided i shld give it up for someone that deserves the seat more and i have no regrets :-)

EARLY MARCH OK ACTUALLY 3RD MARCH HEHEHEHE: BYUSHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEST CONCERT OF MY LIFE
DO I EVEN NEED TO TALK ABOUT THIS
사랑해요 비스트 ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
hearts are never enough for me to describe my love for them so i shall just stop here

4th march was such a beautiful day too ;_;

15june (lol at my good memory for such stuff): BNO
good day with my fangirls and new fangirls that i got to know and the day i welcomed happy pills into my life
AND I WATCHED JAY PARK LIFE YES I CAN ALMOST FULLY DIE IN PEACE NOW



23rd nov (I HAVE LOOKED FORWARD TO THIS DAY FOR 2 WHOLE YEARS): S M T O W N S I N G A P O R E
OPPA OPPA WAS THE MOST HIGH MOMENT OF 2012
LIKE REALLY REALLY REALLY DAMN HIGH
I HAVE FINALLY SAW SJ LIFE A STEP CLOSER TO DYING IN PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok its not that i don't care about the rest of smtown i have done a whole post on it alrdy cmon i'm just highlighting the /highlight/ bc i don't even know if i'll see them again...
being in the rain was kind of fun. a once in a lifetime experience. i kept singing 'feel the rain on your skin~' HAHAHA



1DEC: SUNDOWN BTOB!!!!!
much love to nicole for getting free tickets for me ♡
i kind of knew that i was gna end up at sundown somehow hehehehe just gotta feeling and it was true ^_^v
most enjoyable event ever coz i did was to sit down and lepak and thr was good weather good scenery good food and i was just.. worriless? usually im damn nervous and excited then cannot eat cannot sleep HAHAHA sigh at my life
the day that i figured out out my love for im hyunsik aww
no more last cat for btob again bc their stage presence wows me. really.



8DEC (HAHA THE LAST OF MY 3 CONTINUOUS WEEKEND FANGIRL EVENTS IF YOU DIDNT REALISE): SWC2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
S C R E A M S
I really don't know what to say?
Concert that impressed me the most 2012
Concert that made me cry the most 2012
Concert that reminded me why i'm into kpop and why i love shinee so much and why i will never ever be able to run away from the clutches of these 5 idiots and i'll be stuck thr and part of the beautiful aqua green ocean and the awesome fanchants that day and i'll cry and cry and cry for them always even tho i want to go away bc they hurt me so much T_T

hahaha wow what did i just type

6 events this year. 5 paid, 1 free. wow at whr my money flies to




ok and SO MUCH LOVE TO MY DEAREST TWO FANGIRLS NICOLE AND SHABY ♡♡♡
WHAT WOULD I BE W/O YOU GUYS T^T
even tho we only have one common fandom amongst us three fangirling would never have been the same w/o any one of you. glad we met (THRU ME AHEM) and we fell for the same 5 guys and we're all equally crazy and both of you are able to tahan my nonsense and screaming through the phone and all that and (ok confession ok) IDK DURING THE SWC VIDEO WHR EVERYONE WAS CRYING AND CRYING AND CRYING LIKE SHIT I WANTED TO RUN OUT OF THE MOSH TO FIND AND HUG YALL BUT OBVIOUSLY I WAS STUCK AND I WOULD HAVE TOOK FOREVER LEAVE SO.................................

HAIYA I LOVE YOU TWO LA EVEN THO SOMETIMES YALL BULLY ME (MAKNAE LEH T^T) AND I WAS THE COMMON FRIEND OK. MEEEEEEEEEEE

and i mustn't forget regine and rachel so glad they're in the next class and that i have fellow fangirl friends to run to IN CASE OF SUDDEN NEWS ATTACKS while in school HAHAHA

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THE YEAR IN PIXELS IN RANDOM ORDER BC BLOGGER ALWAYS SCREWS UP THE ORDER SIGH


After dance concert!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg so proud of cheryl when i saw her i cried. we cried. T_T


chung cheng fam at dance concert :-)


birthday celebration with the funbunch at fft not too long ago :-)


going back to cch to collect grad certs!!!! and to watch wushu i think hehehehehe


and to celebrate cheng's birthday!!!!!!


dinner after!!! (i think its the same day???? I'm not very sure LOL)



back to cch for teachers day :---) thats 4dl right thr it was almost full attendance omg /tears of joy/


class photo taking with the class HAHA


jubilation with the photog peeps


celebrating san's birthday!!! this was one day right before we had to report to our new schools T_T


meeting up with funbunch!! this was the first day with my /jet black/ hair. I RMB



shopping with the guides and celebrating jasminey's birthday!!!


went to surprise qianyun at work!!! i was gna say i think it was still during the holidays but NO it was when school started alrdy and jiehui was rushing off to her frisbee practice after!!!


me being stupid with the guideys one fine day HAHA waaaay at the start when my hair was still brown


steamboat with the funbunch during the cny period


spiderman with the funbunch during..... the period that spiderman showed LOL


orientation!!!


OMG 3RD MARCH ALL MY TEARSSSSSSSSS THIS WAS..... ROAD RACE. (TOOK ME 30S TO RECALL WHAT ROAD RACE WAS CALLED LOL)


Another meet up with guideys early on in the year!!! when poly hasn't started i think? me and my super cui eyes at the period SIGH


out to celebrate rong's birthday with the funbunch just a few weeks ago!!!


sa carnival!!!
random day after school for b&j!!! i rmb still contemplating if i shld join exco or not at that period


first photog outing!!!


colosseum!!!!! doing this post made me realise how cheerleading photos totally BOMBED the 'photos of me' HAHA


first exco dinner :-)


meet up with guideys not too long ago also!!!!!!! i rmb having dinner at kim gary. which is now my workplace LOL


after school some random day with the mj funbunch peeps to watch a soccer match i think!!


FIRST MARATHON WITH THE GUIDEYS HEHEHE 5k only la only only


claudia's birthday :-)


first class outing!!!!! (and the only one i went to i think. but i don't rmb thr being any more?!??!?!)


second photog outing!!!!!!


met the sec 2 clique a random day after school earlier in the year


met them again in the hols HAHA


qifeng's birthday!!




surprised gen for her birthday :--)
christmas svc!!!!

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Top 10 happiest moments this year:

  1. WHEN YOON DUJUN WALKED TOWARDS MY DIRECTION 03.03.12
  2. cheerleading results (cannot deny lol really damn happy!!!!!!!!!)
  3. when i got to see dooj again T^T 04.03.12 HAPPY UNTIL I CRY
  4. ........................................................
I was happy on many occasions, but i can only name these 3 bc these are EXTREME happiness sobs i don't know what to put on 4th bc they all place far far far away on the scale of happiness as compared to these.

Turning 18 this year. Why am i not excited HAHAHA

oh wait maybe bc i don't even drink coffee so lets not talk about alcohol HAHA

but yay to being legal soon!! :---)