I know my heart

Jong > b2st > shinee (excluding Jong) = minwoo > boyfriend

HEHEHEHEHE #B2STISTHEBEST #CongratsB2ST!!!!!!!!!!!

2011: Numb

• The year has only been fulfilling in terms of fangirling, and fangirling itself.
• But i don't want to be a fangirl anymore. I don't want to.
• Everything else has been a mess. I am a mess.
• So many last minute cancelled plans, i've no idea what i'm doing tmrw. Can't wait to start working, i can't wait to stop wasting my life away.
• I have to submit
• Feelingless

Supposed to go shopping tmrw but it got cancelled in the end. I probably deserved it aft what happened today anw. I'm a horrible friend.

I shld just head out alone tmrw. Sounds like a good plan :)

메리 크리스마스

Since its alrdy over 12kst

MerryChristmas

!!!!!!!!!!

Had a merry xmas eve :))

And yes i'm aware my hair looks like a mess i will fix it soon!!!

Secret santa

Out for some yum xmas lunch with the guideys today :)

Made our way to cine and ended up with touristy pictures above^ Hehehe you gotta do such stuff when you're still young!!!!!

Met up with Winnie Yuki and settled down at ion's starbucks for gift exchange! 

Failed group photo 1

Failed group photo 2

Camwhoring with my camera like its hers (as usual haiyo)

LOVE THIS PICTURE :)

Can't believe the next time we see each other will be next year.................................... :'( Ok la it isn't that far anw hehe

Xinghwee Mandy and I headed over to fep to do our manicure! Wanted to do a colour from opi's muppet collection but since they didn't have it.....

I did this instead :) BLING BLING hehehehehe my nail colours always remind me of shinee. The previous one was pearlescant blue! Anw never thought i would ever have such glittery nails hm its ok it suits the colour this festive season white christmas yo MERRY XMAS EVERYBODY!!!

This marks the start of me blogging more frequently (i hope)

Goodnight!

PS; do you have any idea how long these 21 pictures took for me to upload?!?

Old crushes

Just read last year's blogposts and sigh i miss myself. I've rly been thrown myself too deep into fangirling.....................but its the fastest escape.

The next two days will be good!

#HappyJokerDay #HappySYRDay ;)

I feel like falling in love~~~

Must have watched too much dramas

What up

#DubuOnewDay

I've been rotting at home and fangirling away. So much so that..............i'm getting bored. Yes, i'm getting bored of fangirling.

After psle, i went crazy over audition. Once sch started, i never touched any form of computer games ever again. Maybe this time, history will repeat itself?? hehe

Meanwhile, got a job as a telemarketer and it srsly srsly srsly isn't my thing. But for ss4 tix and b2st merch, i. will. perservere.

Bye-yeom ^_^

3:02am

3 months since #swcsg. 3 more hours to the 3rd month since my encounter.
1 (?) more month till the big O level results.
1 month for me to make a difference.

I rly hope that the remaining of this december would be good for me. Would appreciate it alot if 31st dec and 1st jan goes well too :) Not that i've made any plans yet............

To do list:

1. Get a swimsuit
2. SWIM
3. No more late nights, more early mornings
4. FIND A JOB (sigh back to the job hunting days i miss shangri-la so bad..........)
5. Complete ba & ss4 fund (xx that i can)
6. Korean lessons!!!!!
7. Learn the million and one dances i've always wanted to learn but couldn't get my butt up to do so
8. Visit grandma again
9. Hp marathon (time for me to get to know the story. anyone???????)
10. Sarang and bibingo
11. Plan srsly about countdown day and not go thru another lousy countdown again

Sick and tired of feeling miserable. Even tho the rain always seems to be pouring and the atmosphere always seems to be thr, i. will. get. out. of. it.

During the Os, i promised myself to blog regularly during the hols. I shall try to make use of whatever remaining time to keep that promise! If you don't know, my promises to myself mean alot to me :)

This post is smth like a jumbled up version of everything's that running through my head.

Goodnight

Not much longer

Its always easy to act and put up a show.

So i'm a rebellious kid??

I'm disrespectful? The worst kid you can ever find???

Well how about those kids that smoke, take drugs, club everyday, drink everyday, steal, kill, have tattoos, have vulgarities pew out of their mouths once they open them, that dropped out of sch, and don't even bother to find work?

I'm worse than them? Ok.

#hellodecemeber

11.11

I hope i'll see you again :)

MAMA AWARDS

HI EVERYONE :)

Yes i went for mama awards hahaha this year has been rly fruitful in terms of fangirling (keke) I attend a kpop event once every 2 months?!? Beast fm in july, swc in sept, mama in november. Rly crazy!!!!!!!!!! And i still have b2st airlines in march 2012 to look fwd to.......................mhm life's good.

Um actually not exactly very good la i've to save up to attend these events ok every single cent is a product of me and my self control

1. Management was horrible. They were only gna let the first 300 in for red carpet and thats why they left the rest of us hanging outside when they alrdy let these first 300 into the shelter. It was only because thr was rain and hence the rest of us we brought into the shelter. Which is also why they were headcounting us even tho thr was 'no official queue'.

2. Cheryl and i left our belongings with kaiteng while we went to buy food and all. Before we came back, kaiteng alrdy moved into the shelter. The security at the door refused to let us (alot of ppl met the same scenario) back in and their attitude towards us was horrible. They were so so so unreasonable even an adult fan who was initally very calm got pissed. We literally fought our way in, 'fighting' with the security after every area was conquered -_- However some other security guards were very nice and talked to us nicely and all, so my feelings towards them neutralised i guess.

3. Even tho we (Cheryl kaiteng i) were quite confident that we weren't the first 300 and hence we won't get into the red carpet, we still hung around the queue. The area where they 'stored' us was right above the entrace/ exit of sis, and hence we had a rly great view ^_^ There were many many many many false alarms tho. Almost every single one of the vans had the vip sign on them ~_~ Saw black eye peas and 6 (?) of the snsd girls tho!!!!! I've a fancam of both but during snsd i went crazy (obviously) and my hand shook and shot another direction (yet again) so yeah..... i only spotted sica sunny and fany... Too fast la somemore they all long hair around the same height i can only see them from above yknow it was too fast *_*

4. Thr were many sones and elfs next to me in the queue i was abit scared hahahaha esp coz of the elfs. Very hiong ah.................

5. Got into red carpet in the end!!!!!!!!!! Second row whoopeedeedoo and my area had alot of b2uties so that was kind of good ^_^ The girls infront of me were kind of irritating tho they wanted fanservice from e.v.e.r.y.o.n.e. And the girl directly infront of me was both a shawol and a b2uty. Say whut. She was funny and irritating at the same time so..... i don't think thats a good thing haha. Anw as i said they weren't supposed to let us in..... Before we were let in i heard the security say that thr were alrdy 400 fans inside but they still let us in anw ^_^ Luckily they did hahaha we're the group that queued since 8+ 9+am???????? Queued till 4pm leh hello~ The group of fans behind us was not allowed in tho. That was sad.........

6. The area around me all liked Suzy too hehe so we kept shouting for her when Miss A appeared! She waved at us twice ^_^ Shyly. Kekekekeke pwetty girl *v*

7. B2st and hyuna appeared so early i was caught off guard!!!!! Once they appeared there was a total huge wave in the pit of fans i got swept to the right... Doo was so funny when he fell off the stage hahahaha qt <3 My fancam was totally shaky its as if we were hit by a massive earthquake i can get a headache from watching it o_e

8. I deleted 2ne1's fancam coz well i don't rly like them anw and my memory was full while recording suju so i panicked and yeah.......... CL was stoning in our direction at first and then she smiled at us!!! So cute hahaha too bad i deleted the fancam i am sorry~

9. Snsd were goddesses. are goddesses. My area kept shouting for Yuri coz she was the closest to us but she didn't respond :( She turned slightly to wave and smile at us at the end tho!

10. Suju: I SWEAR I HAD EYE CONTACT WITH HYUK AND HAE HAHAHAHAHAHA.

The moment with hyuk was when he was talking to shindong. He finished wdv he wanted to say alrdy and he didn't turn back yet. That was the moment ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ Anw i started calling out for shindong and eunhyuk at the start coz they were the closest to us and everyone followed ~_~ So i called out for donghae instead!!! And it rly seemed that he heard me or smth..... almost everytime i called out for him he would turn in our direction........... ok la idk its most probably coincidental la hor. But the eye contact wasn't coincidental at all.................................. ^_^

Me: Donghae!!!!!

Him: Shifts his eyes to me

Me: o_o.........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Him: o_o

Meaning he look at me i look at him he look at me i look at him. Just that it happened in 2s or smth liddat

Me: DONGHAE AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DONGHAE DONGHAE DONGHAE DONGHAE DONGHAE (repeats a thousand times)

Eye contact continues until siwon starts to talk to him - it was the second time he was whispering to him i think - and his gaze goes away

LIKE SHIOK ONLY KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE

What makes me so happy is coz out of the 13 members in suju, i equally liked hyuk hae teuk the most!!!!! So having eye contact with two of them is rly......... heaven liao. I've been a partial elf for so long it started ever since i stepped into the kpop world!!! Plus my feelings for suju has been rly strong recently... i'm even considering going for ss4 despite b2st airlines being less than a month away. Me going = twice the amount of money to save = i can just starve = i'll do and sacrifice alot for them = describes how strong my feelings are for them. I hope that description was enough for you to uds (if you bothered to read)

And the best thing is that i couldn't exclaim out loud "OMG HE IS LOOKING AT ME" just incase i get bashed or anything (who knows hahaha as i said i was scared) so i had to keep it in until i left the pit of fans and then i could start going crazy on twitter. kekekekeke

Ok red carpet over. The award ceremony itself not that much to talk about la at most i'll add it on another time :)

Today is the 2nd day since mama is over

1st day since beast left Singapore

I MISS DOO LIKE HELL T_T

So yes i know who's my b2st bias alrdy

It would seem more normal to miss someone that gave you fanservice right?? But he didn't. And i'm alrdy missing him like asdfghjk what would happen if he gave me fanservice.........................

Okie time to shut up

Wan an