OK AH I GOT THE MOOD NOW COZ @SALTYAPPLETART JUST CAME BACK FROM HER BAP AND SECRET FM AND HER FEELS TOTALLY REMINDED ME OF MY BEAST FM FEELS SO I SHALL GIVE YOU A FANACCOUNT OF BEAUTIFUL SHOW SG NOW ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
YAY THIS IS SO DELAYED HAHAHAHA
I DON'T WNA STOP USING CAPS BUT THEN THIS WHOLE POST WILL SOUND LIKE I'M SCREAMING SO I SHAN'T.
2.3.2012
Went the wee hours in the morning doing my fanboard for doo!!!!!! It was not supposed to be so last minute but please forgive me jc ife kills i'm not joking TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT Ended up good hehehe
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Went to school with a black board in my head w/o any words pasted on yet hehehe if not cfm kena judged ;_; BUT all my friends knew what my board was for anw teehee.
Anw, thank God it was the day of A level results!!!!!! If not i doubt i would have been able to fetch them hehehe sch ended at................. (finds timetable) 12:05 and i quickly chionged stuck my words on my board!!! Which took alot more time than expected T_T I WAS PANICKING SO BAD HAHAHA. Headed out of sch trying to cover the words on my board~~~ Which was hard my classmates were teasing me T_T
Which also reminds me that coz of them i sacrificed my recess to rush out a new and improved essay plan just so that i can run out of sch right after the bell rings T_T That never happens yknow i can't live w/o food
Unless beast is here hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
Anw chionged out and i'm so glad my sch has a straight bus to airport whoo pasir ris ftw!!!!!!!!!!! Was listening to beast songs on the bus and i literally felt like bouncing up and down the bus seat TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT was so so so so so excited!!!!!!!! Finally seeing them again after 4 months (mama - not really counted)/ 8 months (BEAST FM). Thr was this bus stop whr this swam of sec sch girls came on hahahaha its was so obvious they were heading thr for beast. Anw once my bus reached i immediately alighted walked at super ultra sonic speed to belt 32 area!!!
Which was also the area whr boyfriend came out from!!!!!! Hahaha so i went to the same place two weeks in a row for diff ppl ^_^ KEKE
Had two options - to stay at the barricade/ stand at the windows!!! Decided to stand at the windows instead coz we could see them for a longer period of time......................... (don't know whether thats a right decision or not but owell)
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However i find it super heng that i only came <1hour before their flight landed and i could be right infront of the window!!! Hehehe so many ppl were thr since 9am 10am.....
AND IT HAPPENED
The fancam is actually very much longer buttttttttt i screamt so much in the front i cut it off hahahahaha and i LOVE my gut feelings i had this feeling that they were gna come out and THEY DID. All the false alarms i bochup. Muahahahahahahahahahaha feels good like i'm telepathic with them or smth
ANW. CAN YOU SEE THE DOOSEOB
DOOSEOB DOOSEOB DOOSEOB
THEIR READING EYES 8) READING MY BOARD HO HO HO HO HO HO
I can't be sure whether ydj looked at my fanboard BUT he shld have!!!!!!! It was the only fanboard that was piaked onto the glass hahaha like no one else had a fanboard thr!!! AND I USED NEON COLOURS HEHEHEHE
I shall just believe that he saw it hahahahahaha
Seob has so much interest in my board through out hahaha even during the conert!!!!! Must be coz its doo's name. YOON DU BONG~~~
However coz i took the fancam i was looking in the camera and not at them :( :( :( Wasn't high/ happy after that at all coz well its like no difference. Looking thru a camera. Can go home watch music shows also thru camera. hahahahaha it was also because ydj didn't seem to look in my direction at all. OWELL
During shinee's arrival i regret not taking fancam. During beast's i regret taking fancam. LOL LIFE SUCKS.
Aft that Nicole and i seperated ways and i wanted to go find a soccer ball plushie for doo!!! In the end i couldn't find it (ok la last minute cfm cannot find BUT JC LIFE KILLS OK KILLS PLZ TI LIANG WO KE YI MA) and.................... someone brought an exact same thing to bs sg TTTTTTTTTTTTTTT and threw it to doo TTTTTTTTT and he was so cute playing with it and dribbling it around TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT MY SOCCER BOY TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
3.3.2012
THE DAY
D-DAY
HO HO HO HO HO HO HO
Honestly i didn't wake up being very high and all coz i had road race!!! Wasn't performing at my best coz i had stitches................. so i was /quite/ disappointed it wasn't up to expectations at all. I don't even know why i had stitches i usually skip bfast so i skpt bfast that day too........................................ does stitches come from not eating anw?!??!?! HAHAHA
But what made up for it was
CALLISTO WON.
OVERALL
WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO I WAS SO HAPPY ESP WHEN THEY ANNOUNCED THE 5TH AND 4TH POSITIONS WERE NON-CALLISTO. AND WE ALSO WON ANOTHER CATEGORY THAT I COULDN'T RMB WHAT!!!!!!!!
I was jumping up down left right and really cheering my lungs out hahaha not at my best (hehe) BUT SO HAPPY. It was the best moment in my mj life so far srsly beat orientation finale night x3
I was so high i kept screaming out of nowhere and my classmates were all 'CHILL JASMINE CHILL YOU GOT BEAUTIFUL SHOW LATER YOU CAN SCREAM MORE THEN OK' and i was all 'YAYYYYYYYY BEAUTIFUL SHOWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!'
You get the point.
Hahahahahaha came home took a shower had lunch and did hmwk!!! Coz i know i /definitely/ would go crazy right after. It was also the most productive work i've ever done in 2012!!! I think it was coz i was really forcing myself to think and all hahahaha
At round 4.45..................................? I left the house hahaha no rush what seated seats ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ Coz i had to collect my hoodie! Which i LOVE btw its mad comfy and so chio *_____* Other than the fact its a lil too big but owell~~~ And otw down the lift of my blk suddenly these two girls in the lift talked to me!!!
"Going for beast?"
"Um yeah!"
"Mosh????"
"Nah seated :) You?"
"Mosh!"
"Oh i heard thr are alot of ppl thr alrdy............................"
"Yeah but we asked our friends to queue!"
"Oh.................. :)"
"Ok see you!"
COOLEST THING EVER HAHAHAHAHAHAHA B2UTIES ARE SO FRIENDLY ME LOVE. AND SHALL THR BE ONE DAY BEAST WINS SOME HUMONGOUS AWARD (COMING SOON I BET WOOHOO) AND I SCREAM AND I HEAR SOME SCREAMING DOWNSTAIRS, I KNOW WHO THEY ARE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
After collecting my hoodie and also my cape from rangeroux i sat at a lonely side to do the other side of my board hehehe 'sing for me'! Then Cheryl and Nicole came to look for me and then we went to the toilet and then and then and then..................................................................................................
WE ENTERED
DENG DENG DENG DENG
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I WAS JUMPING AROUND ONCE I ENTERED MAX PAVILION REALLY HAHAHAHAHA AFTER 8 MONTHS AND ONE DAY I'M FINALLY BACK IN THE SAME PLACE CHEERING FOR THE PPL I LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND NOT TO MENTION INSTEAD OF BEING ALL THE WAY AT THE BACK (YEAH I WAS ALL THE WAY AT THE BACK AND IT WAS DAMN GOOD), I WAS ALL THE WAY AT THE FRONT!!!!!!!
FIRST ROW SEATS BABY
COULDN'T STOP TAKING PIX
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HAPPY LIKE SIAO!!! HAHAHA AND NOT TO MENTION THR WAS THIS SEOB FANBOY NEXT TO ME. THAT'S COOL. I TALKED TO HIM :) FRIENDLY GIRL
ACTUALLY NO WHEN I'M HIGH I TALK TO EVERYONE HAHAHAHAHAHA
AND THEN IT STARTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HONESTLY CAN'T RMB ANYTHING OTHER THAN THE PARTS WHR THEY CAME FORWARD TO THE EXTENDED STAGE (WHICH IS INFRONT OF ME KEKE)
OH BUT I DO RMB WHEN THEY FIRST STARTED WALKING TOWARDS THE EXTENDED STAGE (FOR YET) I WAS JUMPING UP AND DOWN AND UP AND DOWN AND HOPING DAMN HARD THAT YOON DUJUN WOULD WALK THIS WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND YOU KNOW WHAT
HE DID
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AS I'M TYPING THIS TEARS ARE WELLING UP AGAIN
THE BEST PART IS
HE STOPPED RIGHT INFRONT OF ME
OH GOD
TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
AND IN THE MIDST OF MY EXCITEMENT I WAVE WAVE WAVE MY LIGHTSTICK UNTIL THE HEAD DROPPED OUT AND ROLLED ACROSS THE EXTENSION STAGE AND FELL TO THE OTHER SIDE
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
WHAT A JOKE
BUT AT LEAST I DIDN'T HIT DOO
I WAS DAMN WORRIED I DID
LOL
YET WAS SO AWESOME *___________* BEST 4MINUTES OF MY LIFE HAHAHA
FLAWLESS FLAWLESS YOON DUJUN. JUST STANDING INFRONT OF ME. SWEATING. SINGING. I LOVE TO WATCH HIM SING. SINGING WITH SUCH EMOTIONS. TEASING THE FANS. WAVING TO EVERYONE. SUDDENLY TURNING BACK TO THE MOSH AND TEASING THEM AGAIN. AND CIRCLING HIS HIPS RIGHT. IN. FRONT. OF. ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /CRIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS/
Ok i'm sorry but thats sexy
Whats most impt is. I was trying so hard to get his attention etc but he kept waving to the ppl further behind (well it is natural like why look you look down you'll set your gaze ahead right) and i was quite upset at first :( Like if liddat i get first row for what............................................. so i just went like sua just enjoy his presence omg MUST ENJOY and just went along singing with him and swaying and doing stuff a normal fangirl would do at concerts etc etc etc
BUT THEN
AT THE LAST PART OF YET
HE SUDDENLY LOOKED DOWN
AT ME
READ MY FANBOARD
AND WAVED
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
I WAS SO SHOCKED OMG THE MOMENT HE LOOKED I STARTED JUMPING UP AND DOWN AND UP AND DOWN. LIKE HENTA???????????????????????? AT SPEED 100KM/H. YEAH YEAH. AND HE SAW HOW EXCITED AND HAPPY I WAS HE SORT OF AMCHIOED AND LOOKED AWAY
U CAN WATCH IT AT THE FANCAM ABOVE. AT 2:24??????????????????????????????????????????
U CAN SEE MY BROWN HAIRED HEAD ACTUALLY HAHAHAHA IF YOU OPEN IT BIG ENOUGH. I KNOW I SEEM DAMN CALM THR BUT THATS ONLY HOW I LOOKED FROM. THE. BACK. IF YOU SAW ME FROM THE FRONT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN C R A Z Y
It sucks coz this fancam only captures his wave and not his reading. I really swear and promise and......... wdv that he really looked for me for a longer period than that. Not that short. Enough to read my fanboard. And smile. And wave. And amchio. YES?????
CMON GUYS THOSE THAT HAVE YET FANCAMS OF DOO YOU NEED TO UPLOAD IT I NEED BETTER CAPTURED TIMES OF MY MOMENT ;_;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Seung was beside doo and for 3 seconds i got my eyes off doo and this happened!!!! (TIME)
0:53-0:56
SEUNG SO SEXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Aft yet it was clenching a tight fist and that song was spent talking to the security to help get the head of my lightstick back. Was totally not in the proper state of mind i was mad crazy and hyper hahaha i don't even register watching them sing much t_t
AND THEN THEY STOPPED TO TALK
AND YOON DUJUN
SAID SMTH
ALONG THE LINES OF
"I like how fans here sing along with us. And how you watch our shows"
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6:24 -6:48
'WATCH OUR SHOWS'
'WATCH OUR SHOWS'
'WATCH OUR SHOWS'
'WATCH OUR SHOWS'
'WATCH OUR SHOWS'
UM EXCUSE ME ITS LIKE TALKING ABOUT ME?!?!?!!!?!?!?!??!!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!!
ITS LIKE I'M DAMN SURE HE IS. OK SINGING ALONG. ALL THE FANS COULD HAVE BEEN SINGING ALONG. I WASNT THE ONLY ONE. OK CAN. I AGREE!!!
BUT. WHY THE SUDDEN TALK ABOUT SHOWS????????????????????? WHY????
COZ I WAS HOLDING A YOON DU BONG FANBOARD
ALL
MY
LOVE
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MAKES SENSE RIGHT??????? WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD HE SUDDENLY TALK ABOUT SHOWS? IN A CONCERT? RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT?
DIDN'T WNA BELIEVE IT AT FIRST I TOLD NICOLE WHAT I THOUGHT ABOUT IT THEN SHRUGGED IT OFF INSISTING THAT I WAS THINIKING TOO MUCH. BUT THEN
THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT
THE MORE IT MAKES SENSE
NO??????????????????????????????????????
HAHAHAHAHA
SO HE ACKNOWLEDGED ME INFRONT OF THE WHOLE CROWD
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA
ME
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
OK SORRY LIVING IN MY OWN WORLD
Then came shld i hug or not, honestly that was the time were i was really very disappointed.
I felt like i made an impression on doo. Somehow? May it be the smile, or the wave, or my board, or the mentioning of 'shows'. Shld i hug or not had them giving out flowers. Doo went to the other side first, and when he was walking to my side he had alrdy gave out all and had one left. Took a few steps towards my side, like really A FEW. Then just gave it away
I FELT MY HEART DROP
Honestly disappointed??????????????////////// I know its damn dumb but yeah i was. That was how i was feeling. He didn't even give my side any chance :'( If he walked past me with a whole bunch of flowers and didn't give it to me, then its fine. But he didn't even walk past me..............................
And i loved that song...................................................................................
However for that i had jun infront of me most of the time instead :) CHARISMATIC JUN. HE RAPPED THE WHOLE FIRST PART OF THE CHORUS TO CHERYL!!!! LIKE LOOKING STRAIGHT AT HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LUCKY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THATS 20SECONDS LONG EXCUSE ME
YOON DUJUN AH ONLY WHAT 2 - 3 SECONDS LONG?? HAHAHA
BUT ITS NOT THE AMOUNT OF TIME THAT MATTERS LA YOU GET WHAT I MEAN RIGHT LOL
Jun gave his bouquet of flowers to a girl at moshpit b (which was infront of me). He really wanted to give one particular girl i think haha like he really squated down and slowly give her and all. However. All the girls around her snatched it from her. IT WAS SO SCARY. Like BOOM sudddenly everyone grabbed the flowers and pulled everything out. Leaving her with green thorny stems? Ouch.
Anw at I like u the best..................................
Dujun was walking towards my side. It was the lyrics "you're the only one for me yeah~"
To me its: you're the only one (waves) for me yeah~
FANCAM. TIME.
0:05
HO HO HO HO HO WATCH IT.
THE WAVE IS TO ME
HIAK HIAK HIAK HIAK HIAK
I was bouncing up and down and up and down coz i was REALLY hyped up alrdy. And he was walking towards me somemore. Bouncing speed increase HAHAHAHA. Maybe that was what made him look at me again????????????? IDK. HAHAHAHA
Aft that kikwang came infront of me too and i waved!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND HE WAVED BACK. AND POINTED AT ME. AND SANG
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I CAN'T EVEN RMB THE PROPER LYRICS. I DON'T KNOW WHICH PART. I CAN'T FIND A PROPER FANCAM OF IT.
BUT YES KIKWANG ILU THANK UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
HIS EYESMILE = ME MELT. REALLY
MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT MELT
Aft he looked at me long enough he read my fanboard and aft he finished reading he turned and walked away tho :( SUCKER. HAHAHA coz he wasn't my bias. BUT STILL!!!!!!!!
During thanks to seob came out from our side of the extension stage!!! I didn't know and i was looking at jun (at the direct opposite side at first). When i realised i faster turned around coz i wanted to get my b2st slogan to supposed junseob instead of raising my board for doo. As i did so my fanboard was still infront of me and I HAD DIRECT EYECONTACT WITH SEOB
Idk if he rmbed my fanboard from the airport or anything, but our eyecontact thr lingered for quite long. Like he was walking but his eyes were on me?????? And the best thing is. It wasn't happy eyes. Its the kind of sad eyes. Like idk...........? Disappointed? It just made me feel bad for not making a board for seob. I had a hard time deciding whether doo or seob was my bias. Really. If you're on my tline you shld know. So it really hurt really bad.....
And during the end of the song he walked back and totally ignored me. wts seobbie :'''''''(
He was walking straight down and scanning the first row peeps. He saw his fanboy next to me screaming the top of his lungs out for him. His eyes had a lil 'o_o' feel, but his eyes were still not the very happy eyes. its like the 'oh yeah i'm doing this song again it doesn't really interest me i'm feeling quite sian now why is the crowd screaming so much' kind of eyes. He say his fanboy, waved (not wholeheartedly i feel?) Then his eyes JUMPED over me and went on.
Ok i'm tired this ends here for now
WOOHOO I'M BACK ON 2.4.2012 ONE MONTH SINCE I FIRST SAW BEAST HAHA. I'M HERE COZ I FINISHED MY HMWK TODAY \O/ THAT USUALLY NEVER HAPPENS.
Like idk i feel...............................................hurt? Or maybe i hurt him. My baby ;__________; i'm sorry.
Sigh like idk i really love him so much from the bottom of my heart but he just doesn't feel it and i feel miserable i practically live to make them feel loved T_T Esp for yang yoseob. Sigh
4.2.2012
Reached orchard hotel at 12??????????????????? Or 1. Or smth hahahahaha
Slacked around and waited
Then went into the van and waited
And waited and waited and waited
The whole entire freaking dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
Coz the boys were swimming :( Ok can.
