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Monday, March 28, 2011

Sun wu kong so exciting 8)

Looking from the outside

You know,




Sometimes i think back,




and i wonder why i ever quit ballet.




Cos sometimes, i just miss ballet so much. I loved it so much, it was pure fun to me despite the pain, and yeah it just makes me think that if i didn't, i probably would still be as flexible, and i would probably be in dance.

And some other random times, i regret not taking good care of myself. That huge cough in p4 that lasted for around half a year? Yeah that cough that made me sound like some old sickly woman. Without that cough, my stamina would probably be quite okay and not this horrible lousy shit now. And with that i would probably be in some sports cca???? Maybe.
But then again,

if i didn't quit ballet,

or if that cough virus wasn't spread to me,

 i probably won't be in guides now.





And that makes all regret go away :)

If i wasn't in guides, idk what i would be.

Its like the only thing i'm good in. Guiding.

And my guiding life is ending soon. In around 2 weeks.





 IT FREAKING SCARES ME

I cannot imagine life without guides.

I cannot imagine having nothing on on Fridays, I cannot imagine seeing the squad every Friday, just without the 11 of us...........................................
























It has became such an impt part of my life, WHAT WOULD I BE WITHOUT IT????????????????????

I DON'T WANT TO PASS OUT T_T

(Why i so emotional............................................................)




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Ok disclaimer:

Everyone might think i'm stupid retarded, wdv. How can someone be so attached to her cca and yeah its a cca!!!! To some, a cca might be stupid crappy a waste of time. But i rly can't explain how guides have changed my life. Even from brownies, it has been changing me bit by bit by bit, to being in cch guides, having all the punishments (when we weren't so guniang) to who i am now.

If you knew me in the past, you shld know how big of a change it made in me.



After the protected time talk today, it finally smacked me hard in the face.

I'll be gone from guides. Soon. Very soon.

I would not be known as being in Chung Cheng Main Guides anymore.

The most i can be is a YA.

And the fact that i can be a YA doesn't comfort me.

I can't be in Guides ever again.

And it scares me.



Alot.

Sunday, March 27, 2011


I wanted to update a lil but my internet connection is crazily slow.....................................................

Anw life has been good, or at least it has taken a turn for the better :) Other than the fact that i feel extremely tired every day, i'm coping well i guess. Prelims in 5 weeks oh my mama!! And the fact that i'm still in a hol mood now is a very very bad sign.

Today: Wake up, tuition, sleep, svc, sleep (soon)

I'm happy cos i took the initiative just now :)

A week ago, i was waiting. Now, i just can't wait to get over it.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I rly want to know

HOW IN THE WORLD DID I SCREW UP MY SS SO RIDICULOUSLY BADLY?!??!??!?!? WHEN I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS AN OK PAPER

I can't explain how much i hate myself now wts how can my intuition be that wrong?!?!?!??

Ugh i rly don't want to go to sch tmr, face my ss paper and run 2.4




Haiyaaaaaaaaa

Monday, March 21, 2011

Invisible

Talking about..... undergarments when i'm eating...................................., nagging whenever i'm on fb (why can't you spot me when i'm studying why oh why), when i'm talkative and i talk and talk and talk you'll keep quiet, and when i'm quiet you'll say that i don't make an effort to communicate. Ugh idk i'm just so frustrated.

Most of all, i rly must say that my studies have improved. Or at least i feel like i did, and some of my CT results do show. Subjs like amaths and chem, from a forever borderline pass/fail last year to an A. Isn't that improvement?? And yet you can say i don't study and am always studying at the last minute................ Srsly, can last minute studying give me such huge improvements? I don't think so. Sure sure what matters are the grades for Os, but can't you just see that i'm rly trying to study, and study hard.

Idk man i rly dk. I just feel like my efforts are not being seen, and i rly.don't.like.this.feeling................................

Sometimes, just sometimes, i just want to be taken note of

BANGZ




Back to bangzzzzzz for the time being
Don't i look like a kid in the last picture he he he so innocent ;)
I just want to say how very screwed i am for sch tmr ha ha zero000ooo0o0o hmwk done!! Hols have been rly hectic and exhausting....... :( i rly think i would have preferred normal sch days instead. Anw i'm either gg to die in sch tmr, or get VERY HIGH and then die in sch tmr. Whichever way you get the point lah hor :)

Hope everyone has a happy sch reopening!!!! (meh who will) xx

Thursday, March 17, 2011


Happy birthday 17/3 babies :)

(Somehow this post wasn't posted and i have no idea why ha ha)

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Tekkan day1

I'M SO TIRED I DON'T WANT TO MOVE ANYMORE. For once i'm so happy tht its a day camp i'm dead beat!! Came home shower polish badge iron scarf piak on bed :) long post soon i think we went a lil crazy today 600 pix woohoo!!

Monday, March 7, 2011

I can't get into the studying mode now brain don't fail me plz!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Step step swagger

My brain is dying i've done egoeg notes plus revised emaths and its so hard to get ss in now ugh. Now all i want is for CTs to be done and over with. Quickly :( anw #cchmsnostalgia is so cool kekekekeke i can't stop reading it ever since it started trending fail CTs liao lah wheeeee

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Sparkling eyes






















It has been a wonderful week :) I hope it was good for you too! xx