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I'm waiting for that last 1% of my phone battery to be charged so meanwhile I shall blog

After last Friday, everything just started getting better. Life isn't perfect now, but just better. Better to an extent that it's too surreal to be true, and I'm so thankful for it. I'm actually feeling a lot more happy than I usually am :-)

But it sucks coz now that I'm experiencing the good stuff, I know it'll go downhill soon.

Was reading perks of being a wallflower, since I've watched the movie. Really like Logan lerman in the show hehe, and it's not because he's cute, but his acting is really good. Like I could actually feel how nervous and shy and out of place he feels. Like the story because the starting was somewhat relatable too. I felt the need to cry hurhur

I like it when I start reading but once I start I never stop :-( so...

Think my last minute decisions this year may all turn out good. And I'm glad

WHY DOES 1% TAKE SO LONG TO CHARGE WTH

All I want for my birthday is to have aircon, my laptop and wifi. Just for a day. And i'll snuggle in bed all by myself with my favourite blankets and bolsters and pillows. Dramas and me. I'm just good being alone

May be leaving soon

Darling,

'You try to runaway in your sleep but you cant sleep forever, darling.'

Sometimes i really want to get away from this whole... modernized lifestyle. Like i should take a break and retreat into the wild. Go to the countryside, have my phone faaaarrrrr away from me, and be away from all the crazy rush. Be away from all the competition. The climb for academics, the climb for social status. So tired of always (subconsciously) checking myself and my actions against others, even when i'm not interested. I wish i had more courage and confidence to be who i really am. I'm me, no doubt. But just not fully there.

This is one of the main reasons i like being away from my p/a at Twitter. There, i know what everyone's doing. I know too much. I start checking my own life against theirs, and i dislike it. Being away really made me so much happier.

Content papers for promos start in less than a week. Can't say i haven't been studying, but just not at my best. Can't wait for this to be over, can't wait for pw to be over too. Really looking forward to 14 November where i unofficially mark the end of my j1 life (hopefully, if i don't screw up promos bad). Then i'll have my concerts (HEHEHEHEHE) to attend and go crazy. Coz for now, i'm containing all my happy feels inside me and its suffocating.

I know this sounds crazy, but I want to start taking up Korean lessons after promos. Been dragging this for the longest time ever, on the context of myself 'not enjoying forced learning' (which is true). But it has come to a point whr I realise I really won't learn unless forced, so yeah.

I need the skills for my Korea trip anw 😉

Need to get past promos first tho. 34 days (?) and still haven't started revision. With missing notes here and thr. Haha good luck jasmine

Nothing is impossible

Literally nuaed through the whole National Day holiday, with my nocturnal habits kicking back in place. This is bad coz I'll have problems waking up for sch tmrw, and promos are only in 40 something days. This is a wake up call. The holiday was good, relaxing, so now I'll be ready to go at full speed for promos.


I WILL PROMOTE!1!1!1!1!-!-!-!1!1!1

First

After three months, its finally gone :-)

I feel a huge sense of relief. Even though it let me look forward to each day more, even if its by really little, it added some form of excitement to my mundane life. At least now i know why i was put here. To at least feel this.

Thank you, you shld be honoured.

And even though idk if you were looking out for C or me, thank you for that look on Tuesday

Gen's @ ewf

My eyes disappear when i smile :-(

Fav photo of the day with the birthday girl hehe

Great end to a long day with a successfully surprise :-) Happy birthday gen i love you hehehehe

Blogger likes to jumble up pictures i don't love you hmmph