I know my heart

Jong > b2st > shinee (excluding Jong) = minwoo > boyfriend

HEHEHEHEHE #B2STISTHEBEST #CongratsB2ST!!!!!!!!!!!

2011: Numb

• The year has only been fulfilling in terms of fangirling, and fangirling itself.
• But i don't want to be a fangirl anymore. I don't want to.
• Everything else has been a mess. I am a mess.
• So many last minute cancelled plans, i've no idea what i'm doing tmrw. Can't wait to start working, i can't wait to stop wasting my life away.
• I have to submit
• Feelingless

Supposed to go shopping tmrw but it got cancelled in the end. I probably deserved it aft what happened today anw. I'm a horrible friend.

I shld just head out alone tmrw. Sounds like a good plan :)

메리 크리스마스

Since its alrdy over 12kst

MerryChristmas

!!!!!!!!!!

Had a merry xmas eve :))

And yes i'm aware my hair looks like a mess i will fix it soon!!!

Secret santa

Out for some yum xmas lunch with the guideys today :)

Made our way to cine and ended up with touristy pictures above^ Hehehe you gotta do such stuff when you're still young!!!!!

Met up with Winnie Yuki and settled down at ion's starbucks for gift exchange! 

Failed group photo 1

Failed group photo 2

Camwhoring with my camera like its hers (as usual haiyo)

LOVE THIS PICTURE :)

Can't believe the next time we see each other will be next year.................................... :'( Ok la it isn't that far anw hehe

Xinghwee Mandy and I headed over to fep to do our manicure! Wanted to do a colour from opi's muppet collection but since they didn't have it.....

I did this instead :) BLING BLING hehehehehe my nail colours always remind me of shinee. The previous one was pearlescant blue! Anw never thought i would ever have such glittery nails hm its ok it suits the colour this festive season white christmas yo MERRY XMAS EVERYBODY!!!

This marks the start of me blogging more frequently (i hope)

Goodnight!

PS; do you have any idea how long these 21 pictures took for me to upload?!?

Old crushes

Just read last year's blogposts and sigh i miss myself. I've rly been thrown myself too deep into fangirling.....................but its the fastest escape.

The next two days will be good!

#HappyJokerDay #HappySYRDay ;)

I feel like falling in love~~~

Must have watched too much dramas

What up

#DubuOnewDay

I've been rotting at home and fangirling away. So much so that..............i'm getting bored. Yes, i'm getting bored of fangirling.

After psle, i went crazy over audition. Once sch started, i never touched any form of computer games ever again. Maybe this time, history will repeat itself?? hehe

Meanwhile, got a job as a telemarketer and it srsly srsly srsly isn't my thing. But for ss4 tix and b2st merch, i. will. perservere.

Bye-yeom ^_^

3:02am

3 months since #swcsg. 3 more hours to the 3rd month since my encounter.
1 (?) more month till the big O level results.
1 month for me to make a difference.

I rly hope that the remaining of this december would be good for me. Would appreciate it alot if 31st dec and 1st jan goes well too :) Not that i've made any plans yet............

To do list:

1. Get a swimsuit
2. SWIM
3. No more late nights, more early mornings
4. FIND A JOB (sigh back to the job hunting days i miss shangri-la so bad..........)
5. Complete ba & ss4 fund (xx that i can)
6. Korean lessons!!!!!
7. Learn the million and one dances i've always wanted to learn but couldn't get my butt up to do so
8. Visit grandma again
9. Hp marathon (time for me to get to know the story. anyone???????)
10. Sarang and bibingo
11. Plan srsly about countdown day and not go thru another lousy countdown again

Sick and tired of feeling miserable. Even tho the rain always seems to be pouring and the atmosphere always seems to be thr, i. will. get. out. of. it.

During the Os, i promised myself to blog regularly during the hols. I shall try to make use of whatever remaining time to keep that promise! If you don't know, my promises to myself mean alot to me :)

This post is smth like a jumbled up version of everything's that running through my head.

Goodnight

Not much longer

Its always easy to act and put up a show.

So i'm a rebellious kid??

I'm disrespectful? The worst kid you can ever find???

Well how about those kids that smoke, take drugs, club everyday, drink everyday, steal, kill, have tattoos, have vulgarities pew out of their mouths once they open them, that dropped out of sch, and don't even bother to find work?

I'm worse than them? Ok.

#hellodecemeber

11.11

I hope i'll see you again :)

MAMA AWARDS

HI EVERYONE :)

Yes i went for mama awards hahaha this year has been rly fruitful in terms of fangirling (keke) I attend a kpop event once every 2 months?!? Beast fm in july, swc in sept, mama in november. Rly crazy!!!!!!!!!! And i still have b2st airlines in march 2012 to look fwd to.......................mhm life's good.

Um actually not exactly very good la i've to save up to attend these events ok every single cent is a product of me and my self control

1. Management was horrible. They were only gna let the first 300 in for red carpet and thats why they left the rest of us hanging outside when they alrdy let these first 300 into the shelter. It was only because thr was rain and hence the rest of us we brought into the shelter. Which is also why they were headcounting us even tho thr was 'no official queue'.

2. Cheryl and i left our belongings with kaiteng while we went to buy food and all. Before we came back, kaiteng alrdy moved into the shelter. The security at the door refused to let us (alot of ppl met the same scenario) back in and their attitude towards us was horrible. They were so so so unreasonable even an adult fan who was initally very calm got pissed. We literally fought our way in, 'fighting' with the security after every area was conquered -_- However some other security guards were very nice and talked to us nicely and all, so my feelings towards them neutralised i guess.

3. Even tho we (Cheryl kaiteng i) were quite confident that we weren't the first 300 and hence we won't get into the red carpet, we still hung around the queue. The area where they 'stored' us was right above the entrace/ exit of sis, and hence we had a rly great view ^_^ There were many many many many false alarms tho. Almost every single one of the vans had the vip sign on them ~_~ Saw black eye peas and 6 (?) of the snsd girls tho!!!!! I've a fancam of both but during snsd i went crazy (obviously) and my hand shook and shot another direction (yet again) so yeah..... i only spotted sica sunny and fany... Too fast la somemore they all long hair around the same height i can only see them from above yknow it was too fast *_*

4. Thr were many sones and elfs next to me in the queue i was abit scared hahahaha esp coz of the elfs. Very hiong ah.................

5. Got into red carpet in the end!!!!!!!!!! Second row whoopeedeedoo and my area had alot of b2uties so that was kind of good ^_^ The girls infront of me were kind of irritating tho they wanted fanservice from e.v.e.r.y.o.n.e. And the girl directly infront of me was both a shawol and a b2uty. Say whut. She was funny and irritating at the same time so..... i don't think thats a good thing haha. Anw as i said they weren't supposed to let us in..... Before we were let in i heard the security say that thr were alrdy 400 fans inside but they still let us in anw ^_^ Luckily they did hahaha we're the group that queued since 8+ 9+am???????? Queued till 4pm leh hello~ The group of fans behind us was not allowed in tho. That was sad.........

6. The area around me all liked Suzy too hehe so we kept shouting for her when Miss A appeared! She waved at us twice ^_^ Shyly. Kekekekeke pwetty girl *v*

7. B2st and hyuna appeared so early i was caught off guard!!!!! Once they appeared there was a total huge wave in the pit of fans i got swept to the right... Doo was so funny when he fell off the stage hahahaha qt <3 My fancam was totally shaky its as if we were hit by a massive earthquake i can get a headache from watching it o_e

8. I deleted 2ne1's fancam coz well i don't rly like them anw and my memory was full while recording suju so i panicked and yeah.......... CL was stoning in our direction at first and then she smiled at us!!! So cute hahaha too bad i deleted the fancam i am sorry~

9. Snsd were goddesses. are goddesses. My area kept shouting for Yuri coz she was the closest to us but she didn't respond :( She turned slightly to wave and smile at us at the end tho!

10. Suju: I SWEAR I HAD EYE CONTACT WITH HYUK AND HAE HAHAHAHAHAHA.

The moment with hyuk was when he was talking to shindong. He finished wdv he wanted to say alrdy and he didn't turn back yet. That was the moment ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ Anw i started calling out for shindong and eunhyuk at the start coz they were the closest to us and everyone followed ~_~ So i called out for donghae instead!!! And it rly seemed that he heard me or smth..... almost everytime i called out for him he would turn in our direction........... ok la idk its most probably coincidental la hor. But the eye contact wasn't coincidental at all.................................. ^_^

Me: Donghae!!!!!

Him: Shifts his eyes to me

Me: o_o.........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Him: o_o

Meaning he look at me i look at him he look at me i look at him. Just that it happened in 2s or smth liddat

Me: DONGHAE AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DONGHAE DONGHAE DONGHAE DONGHAE DONGHAE (repeats a thousand times)

Eye contact continues until siwon starts to talk to him - it was the second time he was whispering to him i think - and his gaze goes away

LIKE SHIOK ONLY KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE

What makes me so happy is coz out of the 13 members in suju, i equally liked hyuk hae teuk the most!!!!! So having eye contact with two of them is rly......... heaven liao. I've been a partial elf for so long it started ever since i stepped into the kpop world!!! Plus my feelings for suju has been rly strong recently... i'm even considering going for ss4 despite b2st airlines being less than a month away. Me going = twice the amount of money to save = i can just starve = i'll do and sacrifice alot for them = describes how strong my feelings are for them. I hope that description was enough for you to uds (if you bothered to read)

And the best thing is that i couldn't exclaim out loud "OMG HE IS LOOKING AT ME" just incase i get bashed or anything (who knows hahaha as i said i was scared) so i had to keep it in until i left the pit of fans and then i could start going crazy on twitter. kekekekeke

Ok red carpet over. The award ceremony itself not that much to talk about la at most i'll add it on another time :)

Today is the 2nd day since mama is over

1st day since beast left Singapore

I MISS DOO LIKE HELL T_T

So yes i know who's my b2st bias alrdy

It would seem more normal to miss someone that gave you fanservice right?? But he didn't. And i'm alrdy missing him like asdfghjk what would happen if he gave me fanservice.........................

Okie time to shut up

Wan an

I hate this

Before and during Os, all i had to think about was just studies. Study and my life would seem to go right. Now that its over, everything is rushing back to me. Its overwhelming and i'm drowning.

I seemed to have lost myself on the way here.

I need time, and time won't wait for me.

Graduation

HI ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS 15TH NOV OS ARE OFFICIALLY O.V.E.R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its time to update yall on my life hahahahaha

Graduation was on the 7th :) It was a rly nice day everyone was so friendly to each other and I didnt study for the whole day hahaha! I know of other classes that still was focused in their studies tho hehe but well 4dl can't do that ;)

(Maybe with exceptions to a few kekeke)

Anw pictures!!!!! I was rly tired aft the constant lack of sleep so my eyes are open in some pictures and half open in others. Yall can go to fb and see! And laugh at me :(

Mrs Kwek!!!!! :)

My amath teacher and one of the teachers incharge of guides! She rly made my amath improve alot :) From a meagre pass to As.................I think its coz i did my hmwk hahaha she's my guides teacher leh must give good impression ;)

Mr Tan passed by!!!!! He's a very nice teacher he even volunteers to teach us amath even tho he isn't our teacher anymore. Still gave the whole class gifts! Thankful ^_^

With Mr Lam :)

He told some of us about our good and bad points before this picture (he did so with every class) and his thoughts and all are very........different. In a good way! And the reflection thing that he suggested, I actually did it before hehehehehehe. Anw all the sec3s better pray hard that he's their chem teacher next year!!! I'll miss his lessons and jokes for sure :(

With Miss Ho :) The first pic's my lappy's wallpaper now! And look at Gen Nesse and I in the second picture hahahaha

I know that his name is Kelvin :)

Weiye!!!!!!!! If he doesn't go on stage next year, none of us deserves to be on stage hahaha

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Jiehui!!!!!!!! Haven't talked to her in a million years hahaha but loving this picture!!!

Mr Soon!!!!!!!!

Liao lao shi :) She's so nice our class takes advantage of it at times hehe

2fg 09!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS PICTURE TO BITS

Amanda cl and Sueann pl!!!!!! Guides' pride!!!!!

WOOHOO GOOGLE HAHA

Mr chua :) I was crying when i was taking this picture hahahaha and he totally checked my grooming before i took this picture with him lol!

Graduation was definitely a day to remember :)

Everyone was so friendly it was ridiculous hahaha everyone machiam suddenly best friends!!! But its cool hehe and I realised i took pictures with mostly ppl that i'm not so close with..... but its okay since I'll still meet up with the closer ones right.....??

Cried quite badly at the end hahaha oh well aft all Chung Cheng is my 2nd home. More like my 1st home actually haha i spend most of my time in sch...... And I know of many ppl rly hating the sch and all, but I've never regretted going to Chung Cheng :) It was the sch I just set my mind on right aft I got my psle results (which was a miracle alrdy meaning I don't actually deserve to be in cch) and the ppl I've met inside are just... the best. 

Cried also because I regret not getting to know the 4dl peeps more. I spent one year hating the class.......... Hey what I was constantly near people that hated the class I can't help it lol..... And I'm just rly thankful for 4dl its my hiding place whr I rly feel comfortable and at ease :) I can just talk to anyone w/o feeling too awkward!

Just feeling very blessed and thankful to be in chung cheng :) I had a happy graduation!

Unknowingly

I realized I care the most for you. Please be strong.

Completely unrelated

This is the real last lap.

SWC SINGAPORE

HI GUISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^

IT HAS BEEN 9 DAYS SINCE I'VE BEEN BACK FROM........................................................

UH HUH UH HUH UH HUH I CAN'T BELIEVE IT MYSELF

CAN YOU FEEL MY HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hehehehehehehe ^_^

Sometimes, i still find it quite funny how i became a shawol hehe :) I entered the kpop world as a hottest, and in the exact same period, Jay (my bias T_T) left 2pm..................... SAD OR SAD SIGH. I never rly got over it and all, always thinking that he'll return, the period whr 7-1=0. But yup he never did.

Eawards was happening around that period of time, and Cheryl asked me to go with her! Yeah i wasn't a fan of shinee but i knew who they were la hehe. Went thr coz the ticket was so cheap..............

CHEAP WHAT RIGHT

And Key as my bias at that point of time! I also dk why he was my bias leh lol maybe coz his hair was cool to me at that point of time ~_~ I still rmb what happened that night hahaha impaitently waiting for them to perf to hear Jong's "baby~" and ignoring all the other Chinese artists (whoops). Almost >75% of the floating platform was thr for shinee la!!!!!

LOOKIE LOOKIE I STILL HAVE THE PICTURE!!!

And as you can see from the picture above...........................Jong's face was damn chaobin for the whole la ~_~ And because of that i kind of fell for him!!!!! Hahaha funny right omgz why will a fall for a guy that black face me keke. Funniest thing was that i used to call him ahbeng coz of his golden hair lol!!! Still rmbed one of my tuitionmates being super crazy over shinee and i couldn't uds why coz they didn't attract me hahaha. But look what has happened! Hehehe I love my shinee ahbeng <3

(Wa siala i rly lost the blogging bug I cannot express myself properly)

So yup since then I became a shawol and a blinger!!!!! They were my first ultimate bias aft 2pm hehe ^_^ Did my research and watched Hello Baby!!!!!!!!!! The show that rly rly rly made me fall for them keke loved Jong like mad lor from my bottom of my heart deep deep all the way until.............................

..........this happened.

Man you don't know how devastated i was. I knew the news a few hours beforehand due to connections..........................and no i refused to believe it. (I still don't believe its true tho hehe) They're one of the first few celebrity couples in the kpop world la and who would have thought SM would allow Jong to date?!!?!?! Ssk was his ideal type somemore whr got so good one....................

AND LOOK AT THAT HUGE SMILE ON HIS FACE :'(

I don't think i've told anyone this but i rmb not having any appetite for a few days. Plus i had so many friends that know that he was my bias, my phone was flooded with 'DO YOU KNOW JONG AND SSK ARE TGT?!!!??!' msgs. Heartbreaking ok!!! In non-fangirling terms, its the feeling you get when your secret crush gets tgt with another girl. His ideal girl </3

I still rmb that was during the Hello promotions period. 26th Oct if im not wrong......since then i totally abstained myself from Hello. I loved the song like maaaaad when it first came out. But even till now (even when they've broke up), I can't listen to Hello w/o my heart feeling sour (YES LA I KNOW IM SIAO ALRDY)

And the funny thing was that a day before the news of them breaking up got out, I WAS STILL JOKINGLY CURSING THAT THEY WOULD BREAK UP!!! HAHAHAHA SO FUNNY. Yes i was a (lil) happy when I knew of the news, but no i didn't open a party to celebrate la hahaha as his fan i still feel abit sad for him. His ideal girl leh.....................................

OK ALL THIS IS BG INFORMATION HAHAHA I'M ACTUALLY TYPING THIS COZ NOT ALL OF MY PHOTOS ARE UPLOADED YET HAHAHA

Ok 30+ more pix to go i'll brb ^_^

NI HAO WO HUI LAI LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehehe this is whr the magic rly starts ;)

10.09.2011

Woke up at 4.50am that morning!!!! Was supposed to wake up at 4.30 but..................my alarm didn't ring. Funny thing is that i was dreaming about some fangirling thing too! In my dream, i reached out for my phone. Only to find that it was my REAL phone with Nicole calling me to wake me up hahahaha!!!

Met Nicole @ the bus stop and cabbed tgt with Yenping to the aiport! Yeah they don't know each other :) But make friends ma!!!!!

Reached and YES thr was a crowd alrdy! Barricades were thr and all but nope i didn't stand around the barricades (as usual)

AND THAT WAS ONE.OF.MY.BEST.DECISIONS.IN.MY.LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stood thr talking and all, thinking of smth to say to the boys if we had the chance (lol couldn't think of anything), and i was thr going "Shld i take out my camera?????????? But they're so far i doubt we'll even see them!" So i was thr going yes no yes no yes no..................

6.07am their plane landed :)

And WA THEY DAMN SWIFT. NO DELAY NO FALSE ALARM SUDDENLY THE JUST COME OUT WTS WTS WTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK THIS IS WHR THE REAL REAL REAL MAGIC HAPPENS O.M.G. YOU'LL SEE THIS NO WHR IN NO OTHER FANCAM NO OTHER PICTURES ONLINE. ONLY EXCLUSIVELY HERE ONLY I HAVE HAHAHAHAHA (See how nice am i to share)

Shinee was walking to their scheduled exit (whr the barricades were infront) but noooooooo, the security guards had to direct them to another exit

YOU KNOW WHICH EXIT ANOT?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!!

THE

ONE

RIGHT

INFRONT

OF

ME

WTSWTSWTSWTSWTSWTSWTSWTSWTSWTSWTSWTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus the security guards were making them walk back and forth and back and forth like wtheck!!! One second they're walking towards me and one second they're walking back I was like "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" then "....................................................." then"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" then "....................................................." then "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" then "....................................................."

OK YOU GET THE POINT

BUT IN THE END,

THEY FREAKING EXITED INFRONT OF ME

SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think no one gets why i'm so high over this. But um.

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW NEAR THEY WERE TO ME?!??!?!!??!?! ITS LIKE <1METRE OK!!!!!!!!!!!! IF I REACH OUT CFM CAN TOUCH THEM (LOL NOT THAT I WANT) BUT YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW NEAR I WAS TO THEIR SHININGLY SHINY PRESENSE OMGOSH. PLUS ALL OF THEM LOOKED F.L.A.W.L.E.S.S.

F.L.A.W.L.E.S.S.

(Other than Taemin he looked a lil cui i think he was slightly sick :/)

I srsly wonder how much foundation was thr on their faces

LIKE SRSLY I GOT NO OTHER WORD TO DESCRIBE THEM MAN. THEY'RE RLY CALLED SHINEE FOR A REASON. I'VE FETCHED SO MANY CELEBRITIES FROM THE AIRPORT AND I COULD ALWAYS SEE ALL OF THEM AT QUITE A GOOD DISTANCE, BUT I'VE NEVER EVER E.V.E.R SEEN ANYONE SHINE AS MUCH AS THEM

ITS AS IF THEY WERE RADIATING LIGHT N.O.J.O.K.E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And i'm not saying this only because they're the closest idols i've been close to! Its rly rly rly the truth!!!!!

Wait thats not even the best part

Minho exited first, and i just went like "Minhoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Him being very glam and calm just walked past smiling hahahaha (and he doesn't feel very tall to me leh die he's 1.81 leh shit)

Key was next on the left, Yenping and i waved and he waved back!!!!!!!!!!!!! KEY LEH OMGZ KEY NO MATTER WHAT WAS STILL MY FIRST BIAS LOR! PLUS HE SO DIVA ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't rly see this very clearly coz my eyes were searching for Jong hahaha so right at that split moment whr he waved back my eyes moved away (SO WASTED RARARARA I SHLD HAVE TALKED TO HIM OR SMTH AT LEAST SAY HI UGHHHHHHH)

Key, onew and Jong kind of exited in a horizontal straight line so while i was looking for Jong..............

MY EYES AND ONEW'S MET. VABJBCKASDHFCIUAVBKADLAJDOIAHGF MET LEH MET LIKE DIRECT CONTACT <1METRE ITS THE DISTANCE I TALK TO MY FRIENDS AT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His eyes were so.freaking.shiny...................................... SUPER MESMERIZING. *v* I RLY DK HOW TO DESCRIBE. YES HE MAY BE WEARING CONTACTS BUT EHHHHH I ALSO WEAR CONTACTS HOW COME MY EYES NOT SO SHINY!!!!! It's rly rly rly the purest clearest shiniest eyes i've ever seen.................

PLUS HE WAS SMILING HEHEHE HE WORE A MASK (coz of a sore throat) SO YOU CAN'T SEE HIS MOUTH BUT FROM THE EYES YOU CAN SEE ITS AN EYE SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO ONEW THE DUBU EYESMILED AT ME SQUEALSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS ^_^

HIS EYES RLY................................. I CANNOT TAHAN OMGZZZZZZZZZZZ

(And yes i regret looking away so fast just for Jong lol lol lol)

Finally saw Jong, and he was wearing sunglasses!!!!! Best thing was that he was wearing the cap I L.O.V.E (He wore it to London i think when i saw it in my brain i was gg "Wa i hope he wears it to sgp!!!') AND HE LOOKED SO CUTE HAHAHAHA <3 He wore this shirt i rly like too!!! I specially rmb the shirt coz he wore it on a day he returned to Korea and he was particularly smiley that day!!! SO YES ATTIRE I LIKE HAHAHA and just when i looked at him, he smirked.

S.M.I.R.K.E.D

Smirked leh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was dying on the inside la!!! Even tho i very much prefer him to smile the show teeth smile wide wide smile, I THOUGHT HE'LL CHAOBIN ALL THE WAY LOR HAHAHAHA SO SMIRK VVVVVVV GOOD ALRDY

And as usual being an act cool kid he just continued walking off..........

And when i came home that night (or was it the next day idk) I realised... coz only Nicole Yenping and I were at the front of the exit right, and their view of us wasnt blocked. Jong was wearing sunglasses. SO HE VERY WELL COULD HAVE LOOKED OR AT LEAST GLANCED AT ME. MAYBE MY SCREAMS MADE HIM SMIRK LEH??????????????????????????

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SHIOK

Jong my love my ideal guy isnt all a fantasy. Ppl always say "lol will he even glance at you once" but YES NOW I CAN SAY HE DID. COZ SRSLY AH IF HE DONT LOOK IN OUR DIRECTION HE CAN JUST FALL OVER THE BARRICADE AND BANG INTO ME ALRDY LA HAHAHA SO YES HE MUST HAVE LOOKED :')

WO HEN KAI XIN KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE ^_^

Taemin was last and as I said he looked very cui...........and he has a history of being scared of fans right hahaha. Thruout the swc sg journey he was the least friendly with the least fansvc (imo) so......yup. I just went "Taemin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Oh yeah i screamed for key onew jong too hehehehe "Key!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "Onew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "Jonghyun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

And it was kind of awkward for me to scream Jonghyun coz I always go Jong Jong Jong hahahaha

Pictures! Like what i said i wasn't actually prepared to take pictures. I was SUPER excited too hahaha eh they walked towards me w/o warning leh!!!!! So i just anyhow snapped and yup angles are c.o.m.p.l.e.t.e.l.y wrong but this is the best i got.

(DO NOT RIP W/O CREDITS SHAWOLS WE ARE NICE POLITE AND RESPECTFUL FANS YES?)

FOR TAEMINTS ;) And lockets can appreciate Key's side view hahahaha

(DO NOT RIP W/O CREDITS SHAWOLS WE ARE NICE POLITE AND RESPECTFUL FANS YES?)

Ran to the van area once they passed by us!!! Attempted to take pictures but all failed la......................y'all can just go search for fancams hehe :) Most fancams can see my camera tho hehehe its high high up in the air somewhr... looking very unfocused. Mhm.

Some shawols actually ran and surrounded the van........preventing them from leaving. Dot dot dot dot dot which was why i kept complaining on Twitter hoping that shawols will control their behaviour ~_~

Oh and key (i think) waved from the inside of the van! I couldn't see coz i was too far away and the window were black and all...................................

KEY'S FANSVC RLY VERY GOOD LA HEHE THE BEST IMO ^_^

Went to hound ah ken aft that hehehehehe

Went for kfc bfast aft ah ken left :) We were spazzing away.......................................................... So much good memories gosh :') Which is why i'm abstaining from kfc bfast and airport terminal 1 now hahaha plz do not invite me thr for any unneccessary reasons hehehehe ^_^

Went for tuition after (I KNOW RIGHT WHAT GREAT TIMING TOTAL ANTI CLIMAX)........... I felt quite bad coz if not the 3 of us can zui shinee full force! Best part is that when I got back from tuition (10+am?) shinee left the hotel for the stadium alrdy ~_~ BEST LOR I PREDICT SCHEDULE FAIL. Wanted to go zui them from hotel! So yes one less chance of seeing them...

Went to sis to slack slack walk around collect banners. Before that we were panicking over the fact that we may not get lightsticks... (Ok my fault i was super panicking coz beast fm was a bad experience. Plus i knew of so many non ticket holders coming to buy!)

Oh yeah we spotted this two muscular korean guys getting some info thru their walkie talkie and they suddenly ran back towards this area. So we followed them too!!!!! Hahaha lost them tho :/ And not like shinee came out hahaha but check out the cool staff shirt!

Btw Jong entered the stadium in a s.i.n.g.l.e.t. SHLD HAVE BEEN THR RAAAAAAAA T_T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Go search youtube for fancams la ok :)

Banners!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At that point of time I hadn't gotten Jong's yet T_T

I WAS SUPER SAD OK THE LAST ONE GOT GIVEN OUT R.I.G.H.T I.N.F.R.O.N.T O.F M.E T_T T_T T_T Nicole and i were whining like mad kekekeke :p

Nicole's friends :)

OH YEAH WE COULD HEAR THEM REHEARSING HEHEHEHE they hardly sang any parts but so nice to know we were so near them kekeke ^_^ Stuck my ear at the gaps inbetw the doors trololol

Walked up randomly and i saw more Jong banners!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOP I GRABBED NICOLE AND I CHIONG AH HAHAHAHA SH0 HAPPIIEX WHEN I FINALLY GOT HIS BANNER ^_^

And then this Jap shawol approached us to take picture with her hahahaha

And then i sort of chased her to take another picture with my cam lol lol lol

AROUND 5.50PM (??????????????????????) WE WENT IN

AND MY DEAR CAMERA BBY WAS INSIDE WITH ME WOOHOOOOOOOO!!!!! ^_^

The view from my seat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! VERY SHIOK LOR I THOUGHT IT'LL BE QUITE BAD HAHAHAHA. And Yenping managed to sit next to me!!! It wasn't her seat but no one came to claim it leh hehehe shuang ^_^

FINALLY ONE OK PICTURE LOL

THE OCEAN THE OCEAN

CHIO LIKE WHOOOOOOO

Ok warning first the first half (?) of the photos i didnt zoom in to my maximum + exposure was wrong!!! And this is only 1/8 of the photos i've taken hehehe I chose them randomly from the small boxes i could see on my screen so don't expect too much! ;)

SHINEE WORLD

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I didn't take much pix at the start coz the security was super strict!!! And super distracting they'll literally walk infront of you to to stop you taking pictures ~_~ So yeah i scared hahaha plus this lil girl infront of me kept getting caught!!!!! This whole family took up a whole row infront of me wlao i abit bushuang obviously i'm the bigger fan why dont you let me have better seats...................

I liked senorita's perf alot alot alot tho!!!!! The dance very hot hahahaha me likey ^_~ I keep seeing the whole perf in my head during prelims!!! Distracting101

Only started taking from the solos onwards!!!

 JONG ^_^ I was so engrossed in his perf i only raised his banner at the last 30s ~_~ HAHAHA SUPER FAIL. Still can't believe ST's reporter described his perf as 'disturbing' z. The only disturbing thing thru the whole concert is Taeminnie being prettier than most Singaporean girls!!!!!!!!!!!



MINHO'S!!!!! I actually spammed alot of his coz Florence asked me to help her take hahaha only uploaded 2 here tho. Enjoy his abs ;) It doesnt look so obvious irl leh honestly hahaha just that this picture was taken at the correct angle hehehe ok me and my high expectations............................. 

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 KEY'S!!!!! Spammed alot hehehe look at pretty taemin!!! *_* Prettier than me WTS hahaha! Go watch fancams its worth it it makes me laugh every single time kekeke. I didn't take any of Taem's (he was the first) coz well he sung thru 3/4 of his solo and that wasn't to his advantage............... He shld have danced thru the whole thing hehehe i would have enjoyed it alot more keke :p And sorry maknae i don't support you taking Jong's lines lol I WANT TO SEE JONG LAAAA HEHEHE (sorry bias) A-YO!!!!! The song was super fun hehehe








A-YO~~~~~~~~~~ (waves lightstick in circles) 

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(DRAW CIRCLE DRAW CIRCLE)
 

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Key laughing kekekekeke ^_^ This is graze i think.......................... love the song alot!!!






LOVE LIKE OXYGEN :)

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 Onew's solo!!!!! HE WAS SO SO SO SO SO GOOD DESPITE A SORE THROAT!!!!! SO PROUD OF HIM <3 Bu kui shi wo de 2nd bias hehehehehehe. Go search for fancams!!! It made my goosebumps stand~

Quasimondo!!!!!!!!! POWER OF THE POWER GOSH THIS SONG TOTALLY SHOWS HOW SHINEE SOUNDS WAY BETTER LIVE!!! Their he yin is to die for la srsly!!! Rly was very very very touched by their singing plus thr was still the sad mv behind!!!!! Heart pain like mad :( Goosebumps for this song was at the maxxxxxxxx sigh :'( Best ballad for the concert!!!

I SEE ANGELS~~~

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Hehe the fanboards :)






Onew!!!!!!!!!!

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♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ They can all be dads alrdy ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Up & Down!!!!! Jong was standing nearer to me (FINALLY) SO I SPAMMED HAHAHAHA GIVING YOU ONE PICTURE ONLY THO ;)



READY OR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WA THIS SONG SUPER HIGH HAHAHA EVERYONE WAS GG CRAZY INCLUDING THE BOYS!!!!! SPINNING ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND HAHAHA JONG COULDN'T TAHAN AND STOPPED IN THE MIDDLE LOL SUPER CUTE ;)










LOL SEE JONG GG CRAZY











ONEW'S CONDITION ACTED UP HE ALMOST FORGOT TO RUN BACK TO THE MOVING STAGE HAHAHA HENCE THE EXHAUSTED "PHEW" FACE KEKEKE

LUCIFER!!!!!!!!!!! FANCHANT FANCHANT WHOOP

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 Then........................................




HAHAHAHA we all obviously knew that thr'll be encore la!!! So ENCORE ENCORE ENCORE HAHAHA everyone shouted too fast coz we were all too excited!!!!! Then at one point the chanting would completely stop coz we all got tired at the same time rofl rofl! Never been in a nice encore chant before :( SIAN And so the boys came out again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Singing jojo whoop whoop one of my fav songs coz i realised jong will say 'I love you baby' at the start hahahaha


OI MINHO WHAT YOU DOING TO MY JONG











AND THEN IT WAS BODYGUARD!!!!!!!!!!!! WA whenever i listen to the song now i'll get super high!!! Esp the starting of the song hahaha i can always see the boys running along the stage in my head ^_^

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LUCKY GIRL T_T CAN SCAN AND SHARE WITH ME ANOT
 HEHEHEHEHEHE JONGKEY FOR YOU?????????????????????/

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 HAHA MINHO BULLY JONG AGAIN AIYAAAAA

 I have no idea what he was doing!!!!!






JONG SHOWING THE MAKNAE SOME LOVE


ADDS EVEN MORE LOVE

SO MINHO TOOK REVENGE HAHAHAHA!!! 2MIN WHOOP

One :) We were supposed to sing along!!! But the plan failed hehehe

 YKNOW HOR. Key was alrdy starting to get super touched aft seeing all the happy key day banners at moshpit B la!!!!!! Plus he was singing to One so yeah it was alrdy very touching and we could see tears in his eyes alrdy :') Then.......................

 MINHO POUR WATER ON HIM WLAO SPOIL THE MOOD :(



See see see he still had watery eyes T_T I WANTED TO CRY ALSO T_T T_T T_T I THOUGHT HE WONT NOTICE THE BANNERS BUT HE DID!!! Plus the encounter with him at the airport sighhhh he's rly so nice.........Plus his stage charisma......... HE'S MEANT TO SHINE ON STAGE :')     WA WA WA THIS IS THE SADDEST PART One was playing in the bg and they were walking to the front to do their bows................... T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T T_T 

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 I RLY FELT MY HEART SQUEEZE LA

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Ok i don't sound so full of emotion and all that coz it has been 16 days (yeah i did up this post on diff days) but i rly rly rly cannot describe how much this bow made me want to cry. Why do they have to leave................................I can live in shinee world everyday................................. But i'm a brave and strong girl so i held the tears back :')

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 :')

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HAHAHAHA YES I  AM NOT LYING ONEW TRIED TO WEAR THAT ON HIS HEAD AS A HAT HAHAHAHAHAHA DUBU AH...................... ^_^





LOL JONG LOL


WHEE JONGTAE


WHOOP WHOOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jong took the banner from one of the shawols!!! I bet he has been planning to do so for his wifey from the start aiyo so lomantic ah bby ;)
 KEY SO CUTE HEHE

 

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"DANCETIME!!!"


GO KIBUM GO KIBUM GO KIBUM GO KIBUM


T_T T_T T_T I do not like this photo T_T T_T T_T COZ IT MEANS THAT SWC SINGAPORE IS  GOING TO  END </3

  T_T
Hahaha he was doing some weird sound as he exited :') Forever making me smile hehehehe


DENG DENG DENG DENG.

So that was the end :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( Chionged out of the stadium to the door they'll exit by. Wanted to follow them to their hotel (which means we'll need a cab) but then we realised it was very ulu so we'll probably need to walk out to get a cab! Was contemplating if we shld go to the hotel first or stay thr or were they even gg back to the hotel????????? Coz we thought they were gna leave right aft swc

Called for a cab but got the venue wrong................................. (my fault T_T)

So we kind of decided to just stay thr and wait.

AND SRSLY AH THE ORGANISATION SUPER JIAN LIKE ASDFGHJKLZXC
All the stalking vans were parked outside the carpark. So once they see a van that they think is shinee's, they'll follow. The first van that came out was one with totally black tinted windows. So the stalkers just followed.

BUT YKNOW WHAT? The next van that came out was with totally clear windows with the light shining brightly from the inside. GUESS WHO WAS IN THE VAN???????????? SHINEE.

ROFL ROFL ROFL AND I WAS THR HAHAHAHAHA

I was on the side Taem and Onew was!!!!! And yes onew was smiling and he kind of looked at my direction while the van drove past *_* *_* *_* Beautiful eyes encounter #2 MELTZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I thought Taem was key at first hahahahha coz they both have blonde hair and almost the same hairstyle!!! But yeah realised he was Taem in the end :) He was playing with his ipad and ignoring everything. AIYO

The van stopped at the barrier of the exit of the carpark right. And yknow what happened?????????????

ONE GROUP OF SHAWOLS SWARMED AROUND THE VAN

I WAS STANDING ON THE CURB. OTHERS SO KANCHIONG TO RUN TO THE VAN THEY RAN PAST ME AND PUSHED ME I ENDED STANDING ON THE ROAD INSTEAD

WTS SUPER SCARY CAN T_T

If i was shinee i will be super shocked la.............imagine fangirls banging onto your van and all thats betw you and them is just one window.......................




AND I THINK SHINEE WAS SUPER NICE TO LEAVE THEIR CURTAINS OPEN AND WAVE TO US AND ALL ^_^ Considering how they're known for their lousy fansvc hahaha

Headed to klp aft that to kope wifi hehehe wanted to check whr they were headed towards! Since most rumours were that they were leaving on that night itself so we were thinking we could at least send them off?? But no info and thr was new rumours that they would stay till Sun! (Which they did)

So......my encounter with shinee ended. Just like that.

Its kind of sad how it ended coz i initially had the plan to go from airport > tuition > hotel > stadium > airport so i'll have alot alot alot more chances to see them... but nope the only up close encounter i got was at the airport :/ Was a lil disappointed la..........

Anw had dinner @ klp and Nicole Yenping and I were spazzing all the way!!! From food court to stadium mrt to the bus home keke ^_^ And it was kind of funny how i thought i my withdrawal symptoms was gna be the least bad out of the 3 of us. Coz honestly right! I didn't feel as overwhelmed as how i felt for beast hehe. Plus the two of them were spazzing alot alot alot more than me hahaha. And when they reached home they spammed Twitter immediately while i calmly went thru my photos... I just didnt feel it as strongly as i thought i would!

But then... I woke up the next day crying.

That was when i knew my withdrawal symptoms were rly super duper duper bad.



It has been 16 days, and yes the withdrawal symptoms are still here. I still feel like shit whenever i think of them, but luckily it isn't as strong anymore :) This round of withdrawal symptoms rly sucks... It ain't the happy kind of withdrawal symptoms i had for beast coz i feel more of sad instead. As much i don't want these symptoms to go away (coz i want the memories to stay), i've got to say that they're rly killing me.

Now that i've seen them so up close, i rly want them for myself now.

Plus thr's the sudden Hello Baby SHINee craze going on (coz channel 825 broadcasted it), and when more ppl take note of the show, whether its for Yoogeun/ Shinee, I'm all afiuafhnedaojckbasfjajddbfkadbcaef inside

Esp towards Jong....................aiya rly man he's rly my ideal guy :') As much as i fangirl over a million and one other grps and guys and as much as he has broken my heart and made me feel like shit...... I'll always go back to him as my ultimate bias hehe

(Eh what you think i didn't want to give up being a blinger/ shawol before?!?!?! Being a fangirl is hard work ok! Your heart feels for an additional 5 more ppl and thats only shinee hahaha i still have beast and boyfriend.......... But if Jong didn't break my heart i doubt i would have fell for beast SEE JONG ALL YOUR FAULT)

Wdv it is, I'm a shawol and I'm super proud of it :')

10.09.11
Still living in that day